Saint Andrew’s Church

Lake Worth, Florida

The Eve of the Seventh Sunday after the Epiphany [February 22, 2003]
Canon Richard T. Nolan

When We Feel Paralyzed
(brief meditation; revision of a 1982 sermon at Saint Paul's Parish, Bantam, CT)

        Do these comments sound familiar? "I just don't know what to do!" "I feel utterly hopeless in this situation." "I'm too frightened to do anything." "I feel so alone that I can't even think about tomorrow." "I don't know what's going to happen!" I suspect that every one of us has felt bewildered, helpless, frightened, apprehensive, or terribly alone at one time or another.

        When this occurs, some people remain paralyzed; they accept defeat, and then they surrender. Some individuals try to pull themselves out of immobility by their own efforts; they insist on their independence and self-reliance. Some folks expect someone else, even God, to make it all better, as they cultivate an excessive dependence on others. They do little or nothing for themselves. They accept no responsibility for their own well-being.

        It is unlikely that the paralysis will be healed: surrender, self-reliance, and too much dependence do not work. They simply aggravate and perpetuate one's immobility. New adventures, new chapters, new directions - each with some degree of risk - are closed off.

        What will work? What can we do to heal paralysis when it sets in? What will enable us to take risks? What will open the door to new adventures, new chapters in our lives? Clues are in tonight's reading from Mark (2:1-12)!

        "Then some people came, bringing to him a paralyzed man, carried by four of them." First of all, the paralytic was willing to be carried. He had neither given up hope nor surrendered. Moreover, he was not self-reliant, but appropriately dependent. Second, he had a support group made up of people who knew that they could not solve their friend's problem. Instead, they carried him to a healing resource.

        "And when they could not bring him to Jesus because of the crowd, they removed the roof above him." What commitment and determination the support group had! They did not give up when they ran into a significant obstacle. In addition, the paralytic continued to be willing to depend on them, even when unanticipated effort was required.

        "Son, your sins are forgiven." Apparently, this type of paralysis was caused by clinging to some false gods. Perhaps it was the idol of self-pity, which encourages the "poor me" paralysis; life is tough; I surrender. Perhaps it had been the false god of self-reliance, which rewards it worshipers with a false sense of omnipotence, independence and isolation. Or, perhaps, it had been the idol of excessive dependence - which fosters irresponsible, passive clinging to others; others who would magically provide a solution. Or, perhaps it was a paralysis caused by a loyalty to some other false god. Upon meeting Jesus, the paralytic met God's Word, and within the community of his supporters experienced a healing trust, a healing faith that led him from loyalties to idols to a relationship with the loving God of Abraham.

        To those of us who feel bewildered, helpless, frightened, hassled, or isolated - to those who face a wilderness and the desert - to those to whom life seems to be shouting "NO!" - are Christ's invitation: Let others know when you feel trapped and are hurting. Accept the caring hand of those who reach out to you even in the smallest ways. Accept a pathway in your wilderness, a river in your desert. In addition, with their love, support, and determination, let go of paralyzing idols of self-pity, self-reliance, or over-dependence. Let go of all those immobilizing loyalties that prevent even the smallest risk-taking and new chapters. The miraculous healing power of the love of God, of one's neighbors, and of oneself will enable suitable risks, new chapters, and gradual recovery.

        "Then some people came, bringing to him a paralyzed man, carried by four of them." "And when they could not bring him to Jesus because of the crowd, they removed the roof above him." "Son, your sins are forgiven." "I say to you, stand up, take your mat and go to your home."